“We are what we repeatedly do. Greatness then, is not an act, but a habit” -Aristotle
To run a marathon or accomplish any great feat that requires endurance you must train for it from beginning to end without deviating from the outcome. If you deviate, you lose and muddy your chance at success. This I've learned through failure. If you have an alternate motive, you split your energy for accomplishment and that's ok too. :) "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
Forgive yourself, for in order to achieve anything takes recognizing that there is an absence of it, a void to fill. Rest, recover and resume with newfound wisdom. You are now a better version of yourself than you were yesterday as long as you learned from it and apply the lesson to future endeavors. Realization is very close to enlightenment.
Having seen some amazing competitors out there I realize many little adjustments that can be made in order to have massive success. I always learn from my competition and for that I'm very grateful. They help to make me become a better version of myself.